30th Dec 2012

Went out to meet up with py,phy and hh just now. Had a great time talking and catching up with each other just now. We even had fun bullying our poor little phy about her and her meat LOL

It just reminds me about my youth and how much I have been through during jc days and up till now. I guess, I have made little progress as an individual overall. I do not consider myself making much breakthroughs this year and the previous years since I last graduated in jc in 2009. 

How time flies. 

Everything seems too fast, a little too fast for me to catch up and reflect on my doings. 

I shall spend more time reflecting upon myself and my doings,starting from next year onward.

Time to mature as an individual and be more sensible and responsible to myself, as the youngest child of the family, as a student, as a future healthcare professional and a leader of the future

I can do this, that's for sure. 

I just need a little more confidence and faith, perhaps, on my own abilities and capabilities 

Random thoughts

28th Dec 2012 

Went out with sha today! Had a great time with her! 

Gossip time with her rocks haha 

Saw Romeo Tan today at ION orchard:D 

He is sooooo good looking, just like some super model when he walked past me

I love shopping nowadays! Even though its just window shopping but still, i'm quite happy haha

Went to Sephora and was extremely tempted to buy benefit products! 

Shall buy it together with sha once I received my allowance next month:) 

Wanted to get a new wallet from Charles & Keith also! 

maybe it's time for a change:D

Bright colours FTW <3 div="div">

Red - Taylor Swift

Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street
Faster than the wind
Passionate as sin, ended so suddenly
Loving him is like trying to change your mind
Once you’re already flying through the free fall
Like the colors in autumn
So bright just before they lose it all

Losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met
But loving him was red
Loving him was red

Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you
Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song
Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there’s no right answer
Regretting him was like wishing you never found out love could be that strong

Losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met
But loving him was red
Oh red burning red

Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes
Tell myself it’s time now, gotta let go
But moving on from him is impossible
When I still see it all in my head

Burning red!
Darling it was red!

Oh, losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met
Cause loving him was red yeah yeah red
We're burning red

And that's why he's spinning round in my head
Comes back to me burning red
Yeah yeah

Cause love was like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street

*From what everyone seem to advise me, i really hope that my first love would last for life. I didn't want to go through any heartbreak :( 

Ask ***** to marry me now! 

His blog!

Why is he so cute one?

http://lonesomebrain.blogspot.sg/search?updated-min=2012-01-01T00:00:00-08:00&updated-max=2013-01-01T00:00:00-08:00&max-results=6

24 Dec 2012 

Random blog post since I'm really bored right now

This year has been a good year for me. Never felt so much alive as ever before:) 

Since I started to go church in June 2012, it has been great! 

 

Getting to know more friends like JJ (The thought about him right now makes me kinda sad..Oh wellz, I should stop thinking about him right now) and getting much closer to a lot of friends, not just uni friends, but also my jc friends. 

Really excited for next year though! I'm really curious what is installed for me next year haha

LET ME DO A QUICK REFLECTION ON THE THINGS THAT I HAVE DONE IN Y 2012 : 

1. An exco member in Rotaract Club

2. First church service in June

3. First Running Man on 16th Dec 2012 

4. A lot of random meetups with PCL, Umama, Sha :D 

5. Getting closer to Sha and my classmates :)

6. Spent my 2 months of holidays working in private healthcare sector 

7. Spent around 200 bucks on my textbooks :S 

8. Saw bunny twice outside lol (SUPER DUPER HAPPY WHEN I SAW HIM)

9. Mugging sessions with CJJ in utown, sci faculty etc 

10. Knowing CJJ a lot better (and his clique in his tutorial group) 

11. Spontaneous meetup with bunny and zy in July 2012 (AND ZY IS ULTRA DISGUSTING PLEASE) 

12. Participated in NHS 2012 

13. Exco in Activaid 2012 

14. First flag raising in my entire life 

15. First scholarship (CAN OFFICIALLY CALL MYSELF A SCHOLAR NOWWWWW MUAHAHHAHHAAA) 

Realization

24 Dec 2012 

Decided to do a post today, out of the blue.

Suddenly realized that I still have a blog that I can post my stuffs without worrying anyone would read my post. 

It never incurred to me so much that I would really worry about someone who I have known for at least 5 years. 

5 years of friendship 

Only then it struck me that I really really really care about him

When I saw the news that there is natural disaster near the place where he is travelling, my heart sunk. 

i panicked a lot after hearing the news and really prayed in my heart that he will be alright. 

Safe and Sound

5 years of friendship is really quite long 

But. It's just a pity that my club president is too obsessed with his own studies -.- 

I guess it's a good thing also though. 

Time to set my priorities right

8th June 2012

Today is my LUCKY day ttm. 

1. Received a job offer from my first interview.

2. Brought a new bag

3. Guess who I saw while having dinner with my sister? 
It's BUNNY! 
Gosh. Never thought that I would ever see him outside. 

I guess this is what people call it as FATE<3

Really excited when I saw him together with his family but I did not walk over and greet them cos I was too scared. My limbs were shaking badly and my heart rate was like over 9000. The feeling was really weird as I do not think i have ever experienced it before. 

Feelings that we seemed to know each other for a long time~~~ not 4 years of friendship~ It's just really difficult to describe it. 

Reading week

One more week before the start of the first paper....

Seems kinda distracted with many things...

STAY FOCUS CAN?!!!!!!!@.@

Must not slack anymore

One more assignment to go...

FIGHTING!

I can do this!

Let's try to complete as much as possible by today!!!

JIAYOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

First Assignment Done!

Woots!

Happy kid now, since the first assignment has been submitted:)

Gonna slack for the day and chiong to finish my studies and stuffs at night:)

Shall take a good break from now until night:)

A happy kid ever!!!

Shall meet zy later(For the sake of meeting up since he always say that I very busy and got no time for friends like him) ;S

Zzzzz...

Week 7 updates

Shocking news heard from them just now. This is kinda scary.............

3 assignments

1 month's time

5 Final exams

1 Brain

1.5 months to final exams

1 Heart, Mind and Soul

3 more months to clinical attachment

1 poor student

LOLXD Random TTM

It's a rainy, emo day:X

Lack in motivation to do anything productive today:/ Maybe it's a day to slack off a bit:/

Gosh, but MIC CA is coming real soon! In less than a week's time.

What should I do nowwwwwwwww?

Scary

13/02/2012

Today would be the second consecutive day that I dream about bunny! This is freaking me out totally~~~~~~

Message Conversation with Bunny:DDDDD

19/08/2011

Me: Or you can treat me to super junior concert!:D

Bunny: No thanks. I don't have some high four figure income, you know. I'll see how... ...

Bunny: Eh? No... Not that i'm aware of. Also good. Bunny is sooo my nickname anyway.

Oct 2011

Me: Omg. I got a crazy idea how to celebrate her birthday haha:P you wanna listen to it?:S

Bunny: Sure. Why not?

Me: Nvm i shall not tell you first.. I tell zy tmr haha You wanna come along tmr?:D

Bunny: Cannot leh. Struck in camp.... Tell me, tell me...

Another conversation...

Bunny: I initially also wanted mp. Suay didn't get chosen. Sigh... I'm here as s medic on cover,as if someone will.............haha

Me: Cannt imagine you scolding people in there....

Bunny: Oh... No la....I can get angry too you know. There was a dream that I distinctively remember shouting and swearing at someone really loudly. Hahahaha. XD

Me: Haha.. I supposed you are yawning right now while doing your duty now. I hope the person in your dream wasn't me:X

Bunny: Yeah. Quite boring here. No la, not you. It's some kid. Can't really remember.

Me: LOL! A kid? Haha i guess you really dun like kids a lot... I still remember in jc you said you would throw kids off the building if you could...omg

Bunny: Hahaha. I wouldn't if they are less irritating. But most kids have like a wire loose in the head. Hahaha. XD i'm a sadist :-P

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Bunny: Dots... ... This kid thing is subjective la. Some people can stand kids except for their own. Haha. Can't imagine myself being good with kids. Ugh.

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Bunny: Haha. True True. Frustration as like throwing the kid out of the window. Lol. :-D I'm NEVER getting married, much less have kids. Probably won't even keep pets.

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Bunny: Yeah la. Wa. You're over-reacting. Calm down. Reminds me of your phone call that i can hear a meter away. Haha. Crap. I don't remember noticing the 'chio' people in school. Hahaha. I'm abnormal i guess. Lol.

ME: Haha i cannt remember that incident anymore *selectively memory loss* >.< Its normal to look at chio gals around, even gals do that Well , i guess you are looking at guys or something :S haha just kidding

Bunny: I guess I was just staring into space. Zy is probably the one looking at guys. :S

Me: Haha! For me, im either looking at girls(which is not because im....) or wondering why zy and wx are looking at guy:X lol

Bunny: Lol. Looking at each other and galston ah? Hahaha. I guess you, umairah and me are more "normal" then.

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Bunny:But NS is compulsory, giving birth is not :-P Watch lion king lah. I treat you as a birthday present? Hahaha.

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Bunny: Wah. Stereotype again. You watch too many dramas la. Although it reflects a majority of the population i guess... ...Really ah? You okay then i'll go buy liao ah. I'll watch too. Didn't know you're the musical kind of person. Oops.

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Bunny: Lols. Okay... Don't expect like front row seats la. The back seats are still affordable i think. I dunno. Your call. Or help me to save money now. I'll get you something else and rebate you with a gift from japan when i go in november. Haha.

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Bunny: Nevermind. Quit the lion king idea. I'll get you something else. Hahaha. :-D

Lol. Disneyland and disneysea and tokyo. Watch the 'wicked' musical with me next year leh.I'm too broke this year to watch 'wicked'. Hahaha.

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Bunny: Oh.. I see. Their concert is in november? There might be concert merchandise...

Bunny: Lol. I'm not THAT serious la. You need not list every single thing that you're kidding...Either that or this range thing is driving me crazy. Hahaha. XD

Me: Lol! Im used to saying that actually. I think you are driving crazy because of ns life, not by my words LOL

Bunny: Lol. It's finally over. Can go back and sleep liao. Zzz... ......Thereby ends the madness. Hahaha. XD

27/09/2011

Me: Bunny! We shall dine at some 'zai' restaurant when we go watch the wicked musical okay? Time to experience new things in life haha:D

Bunny: Yeah. sure. XD

Better than I know myself

Cold as ice
And more bitter than a December
Winter night
That's how I treated you
And I know that I
I sometimes tend to lose my temper
And I cross the line
Yeah that's the truth

I know it gets hard sometimes
But I could never
Leave your side
No matter what I say

Cause if I wanted to go I would have gone by now,
But I really need you near me to
Keep my mind off the edge
If I wanted to leave I would have left by now,
But you're the only one that knows me
Better than I know myself

All along
I tried to pretend it didn't matter
If I was alone
But deep down I know
If you were gone
For even a day I wouldn't know which way to turn
Cause I'm lost without you.


I know it gets hard sometimes
But I could never
Leave your side
No matter what I say

Cause if I wanted to go I would have gone by now,
But I really need you near me to
Keep my mind off the edge
If I wanted to leave I would have left by now,
But you're the only one that knows me
Better than I know myself

I get kind of dark
Let it go too far
I can be obnoxious at times
But try and see my heart
Cause I need you need now
So don't let me down
You're the only thing in this world I would die without

Cause if I wanted to go I would have gone by now,
But I really need you near me to
Keep my mind off the edge
If I wanted to leave I would have left by now
But you're the only one that knows me
Better than I know myself

Cause if I wanted to go I would have gone by now,
But I really need you near me to
Keep my mind off the edge
If I wanted to leave I would have left by now,
But you're the only one that knows me
Better than I know myself

Week 4

Hello, it's me again

Now it's already week 4 and i'm still struggling like mad:/

I really don't really feel like doing anything right now, just feel like slacking the day away

Maybe I should just relax for the day and be mentally prepared tomorrow for my intensive mugging session?

Hmm..Otherwise, I will drink coffee later at 11pm after catching my show and chiong in the midnight where I have ZERO distractions

Nothing else except for me and my books/notes.

Hmm..this seems to be a good idea:DDD

Okay..Uni life isn't that bad but just that it is really tough to get someone who knows you well enough. I wonder if my friends did realize the significant change in me. What's wrong with me?

Maybe it's time to share with some of them?

I'm sure they are trustworthy enough to share their thoughts about the situation that I am in.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=so6ExplQlaY

ASSESSMENTS:(

Assessments are driving me crazy!

Haix

I have no choice but to do them and do my work efficiently, shall not procrastinate anymore!!!!!!!

Sem 2 Week 1 life

Hello, it's me again.

Week One has ended and it seems that it is going to be another tough fight in life ever.

The things that I am learning are getting a lot tougher as expected and everyone seems to mug even on the first week of school term Semester 2. Come on, as always expected in life but I was nevertheless shocked when I knew that all my classmates have been mugging like hell on the first week. It shouldn't be a surprise anymore i guess since all my classmates were born muggers since they were brought to this world. Perhaps it is the society that force them to be like this but it is still very scary when I knew them last year august.

I feel that they are not very close within their own cliques and they are just putting up a strong "fake" front in front of the others.

HYPOCRITE

I don't feel even comfortable with them as they are just simply so FAKE.

Seriously. WTF totally.

I think they are just putting up a show for everyone to see and they are just merely FRIENDLY COMPETITORS totally

That shouldn't be the case so.

Now, me and sha seem to be getting a lot closer. Perhaps we are just being really alike in terms of our REAL personality:DDD

It is totally alright.

I don't need such hypocrites to be my friends

They just don't deserve to be my friends

2012 - Beginning of Y1 Sem 2 Life

Gosh !

Time really flies~~~

It has been almost half a year in my course.

Now I still have one more day to the start of my course in Year One Semester 2!

Time to tell the truth...

Confession time to myself

Frankly speaking, I don't really hate my course or anything, or do I have the right to hate my course?:S Anyway, the course itself is really fulfilling and meaningful BUT just that I'm not too sure if I am capable of working when I graduate. I mean, it is really tough job and I'm sure that not many people can actually bear with the workload and rotating night shifts. It would be tough for me to cope with, especially when my health condition sucks totally...

Also, I think I would have to stay for at least a few years before I can acquire enough experience to enter to education route? What if there are some changes then? Like, I were promoted and my company would want to sponsor me for further studies? What should I do then?

Gosh~~~

This is too much for me to think about all these stuffs right now.

I'm quite confused now.

If I want to study another course instead, what will happen to me?

I would be a lot older than my fellow peers even if I managed to get into my dream course.

So what if I ENTER TO MY DREAM COURSE?

What significance does it mean to me, as a student?

I would be busy with mugging all day long and worrying about whether I can get a job when I graduate...

L-O-V-E

Weather: Sunny

Have the sudden urge to write a post about LOVE while watching taiwanese drama series. Suddenly I think that the editor is right about something. Sometimes, your love towards that person may not be based on your IDEAL TYPE. Though the type differs from reality, it does not mean that the love will not be everlasting as love may be as simple as going through the flow.

Let things go naturally.

Therefore, I shall stop trying to get my ideal type of guy LOL - Cho Kyuhyun from super junior.

Everything will work out just fine.

Perfection

I don't understand why people nowadays are desperately seeking for perfection.

In their eyes, they are only attracted to beautiful and flawless things which makes them really superficial and fake. Not referring to their FLAWLESS appearance, but their inner self.

Seriously, looking at the youngsters nowadays, it's kinda scary to see how much effort they put in just to make themselves look flawless. I mean, there is nothing wrong in putting effort to make themselves pretty, but the problem arises when they are too obsessed with beauty and nothing else.

Come on, people!!!!

Don't you guys have better things to do in life except for seeking for your own definition of beauty?! I'm really freaked out when I see so many girls spending tons of money to look chio. For my cousins case, they mostly revolve around their bfs so they "have" to look pretty to match their bfs duh. What kind of logic is that? I really don't get it and I cann't be bothered to comprehend their mindset.

Without inner beauty, everything else exterior are pretty much....fake

But how many guys really see the inner beauty of a female instead of looking at her appearance? With this trend, I can foresee that more and more girls will be more obsessed with improving their external beauty with makeup and plastic surgery:S Such a saddening trend to see:(

Hope I would be able to find a guy who appreciates inner beauty more than physical appearance soon...