Study Break

Dated 11th August 2010,Wednesday.

I just returned home after having BBQ Chicken with Annette, i got no idea why am I such a slacker(was about to type out sucker instead of slacker=.=) This proves how unwell I am. Haix. For the past few weeks or so, I am been slacking happily instead of mugging really very hard just like Lamprey last year. Why cannt I just be like her, a hardcore mugger?! But well, I should focus right now and aim to reach for my target.

No more slacking and procrastinating from now on.

I dun care what price I will have to pay just to achieve what i want from now on.

Who cares about what they think of me?

EMO

Date: 9th June 2010

Now listening to Eat you up by BOA.

I should be doing my work instead of slacking right now for the past few hours. Yet, I am now emoing and a lot of stuffs are running through my mind right now. What on earth am i doing?!!!
Sadly but true, I do think that i shall not trust people that easily anymore.
IT'S TIME FOR A CHANGE( FOR THE BETTER THAT IS FOR CERTAIN )
But the question is...
Will I be able to change for the better?
Probably not i guess

I think I am becoming more like her that she was last year.
Isit true that there is no such thing as 100% perfect in this world?
Can one ever get the best of two worlds?
How I wish i can ever do that.
Well,apparently not i think.

To me, everything has suddenly changed, for the worst...
I cannot help it but to feel pessimistic about everything.
Who can cheer me up?
Has anyone noticed about my change?
Drastic changes this year as compared to last year.

Maybe I'm undergoing meterphoresis or something...
Nah,i think "geographical isolation" would suits me more...

15/4/2010

Thursday 15th April 2010

I seemed to have undergone a roller coaster ride for the past 2 weeks or so.

Too much things have happened within this seemingly short period of time which disappoints me a lot. Too much in fact.

What am i supposed to do?

RUN AWAY FROM THE TRUTH?

OR SHOULD I TREAT IT ASIF I DON'T REALLY CARE?

This is so frustrating, i just cann't seem to figure it out somehow.

But there's something that i can confirm, that is the cruelity of the reality.

Probably it is just the hardcore truth where nothing can stop or prevent it.

Why everything seems to change so much recently?

So much until i could not believe the speed where by it is progressing.

Especially got to do with friendship.

Probably it is right that one should not place too much faith in friendship.

As you know, people change from time to time, not just physical appearance, but also, their own personality and values. The speed is amazingly fast that one could not realize about it.

But, that is just the truth , whether one like it or not.

I couldn't comprehend that no matter how hard i try to.

Why everything around me seems to evolve at such a fast pace????

Am i the only one that is being left behind?

Alone and yet defendless to the upcoming dangers/situations that i have to face with it alone?

Is it true that i'm the only one out of such complex,fast-paced world?

I hope not.

Seriously,i dun get it at all.

why one has to be so self-centred and yet put on a fake front to the others?

A highly invisible, yet defensive to all-mask.

where by no one could see it except for that person whom is trying all means to survive in harsh conditions,especially in a hyper competitive society.

Does one have to be so fake in order to survive & to backstab/forsake their close ones for the sake of the survival? Is it ever justified? Why is this phenomenon is so common anymore?

Does anyone ever thought of that?

Also,to think how difficult it is whereby one has to put on a fake front to his or her friends/relatives etc wherever he or she goes. Isn't it too tiring?