emo post, again:
DON'T TALK TO ME!!!
I am feeling so emo. I will be sad forever! I am crying inside!
I will write out what we did today.

WE rehearsed for a while in Auditorium before going off to RP. As soon as we reached RP, we saw this guitar ensemble, the girls are wearing like Angels dress costume. DAMN BEAUTIFULLL! but we told ourselves, "ahh its okay. they looked nice but maybe they play no quality"

While waiting to go inside the tuning room, we are all so noisy larhs! Everytime the coordinaters told us to KEEP QUIET! In the tuning room, we tuned properly!!! DAMN PROPERLY! After tuning,we went to the backstage of the theatre to wait for our turn. As soon as the RI finished their piece, its our TIME! I gave YT the confidence smile.

While on stage, I really focused, lucky no stage fright, I just felt confidence and smiled from ear to ear, and told myself, THE DAY HAS FINALLY ARRIVED! And keep saying to myself, TO GIVE ALL MY VERY BEST, AIM FOR GOLD!!! :D
Paul was conducting us, looking all happy.
Finally, we finished our pieces, we went out, put our guitars back in the casings, and sitted in the theatre to watch our schools play. LOL the girls use foot stool leh, so their legs are like wide apart, and some are wearing dress, so it looks, ERRRR. Saw few pretty guys and 1 pretty girl. The Angels' school, played DAMN NICE! They played Coup De Coeur as their first piece. LOVE IT!

After the guitar ensemble schools performed their pieces, we went for lunch at RP canteen. $3.50 leh for the food OMG. $0.80 for drinks, SO CHEAP. Me, YT, QQ and Cynthia were all talking about ... *coughs coughs*
After eating lunch, I emo one corner. Then, around 3pm, the results were out. So we sat patiently in the theatre, listening to the announcer announced the results of each school. 30 over schools involved leh. So finally, the announcer announced *Our Schools Name* *Medal type*. IT FELTS AS IF SOMEONE STABBED ME IN THE HEART! I felt like crying. Then minutes later, I was weeping =.= Then, I kept quiet, emo the whole time. I messaged Tissany once I knew the result. While waiting for the bus, I also cried a little bit. Only like 4 schools got Gold and above. Its like WTF IS GOING ON?! Even those elite schools got the same medal as ours! HEHE! :D but the "Angels'" school got GOLD LEH!

At school, I saw some of my classmates, they were all smiling at me, and waving at me, I just gave them that emo face, and just waved, like a robot. I AINT GOT MOOD FOR ANYTHING! Inside LT2, Mr S and Paul asked who wanna go out and eat dinner. Not many people raised up their hands lor. I also didn't raise up my hand. Suddenly, Paul said, "Mr S is treating us leh!" I raised up my hand to indicate that I want to go! LOL! Mr S said, "Ok la. I will feed my baby with plain water from now on" LOL DAMN FUNNY!

In the end, we all met at Swensons! :D YAYNESS! I was damn happy. I ordered Fish and Chips, and Mint ice-cream, $13.90 and $6.50 respectively. OMG! =.= Very happy get to eat with the friends I have. But then, around 20 people came for the dinner. Jolene and co. went to KBOX?! LOL! I VERY HAPPY! After all that, we took pictures, and the cost for the Swenson will be shared equally among Mr S, Mdm C, Mr O, and Paul (I can't write the teachers name here lah, later can track down one). THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! :D (And Paul is the student conductor for the previous 2 guitar SYF, SO TALENTED MAN!)

In conclusion,
1. WE really tried our very best, its not our fault that we get that kind of medal. Even our school music teacher said that we played very well during rehearsal (and during SYF and rehearsal, we sound approximately the same)
2. The school is proud of us, including our teachers, we are the BEST batch, compared to the previous batch.
3. I now loving Coup De Coeur, THROW AWAY BACH AND JAZZSUITE! ARGHHH~ Coup De Coeur is soothing my nerves.
4. I will be emo from today onwards and to infinty days. Just don't ask me this SENSITIVE QUESTION: "What did you guys get for SYF?" JUST DON'T ASK ME THAT QUESTIONS, PUH-LEEZE! If not, I will cry!
5. No mood to go for guitar practice for 1 hour, no mood to do homework. CMI.
6. MY Chem test, I got C! WTF! DIE LARHS.
7. I still remembered discussing with HC that we would get a Bronze maximum, and he said we would get COP maximum for SYF, a few months ago when we started learning Prelude and Fugue. But then, as months passes by, I got the feeling that we would get at least Gold. But now, I am right afterall? I shouldn't say anything in the future. I shall become quiet as a MOUSE! =.=

- ċŏŭp dė ċŏėŭr

TO HIM:

uhh...

THANKS FOR RUINING MY DAY:D

such a jerk man!

I am so not going to talk to him EVER AGAIN. everything has its own limits! just now it already reached its MAXIMUM RATE, and going on a plateau. my patience has run out.

NOT gentleman

NOT appreciative

know why the guitars got hole?! its for ME (yes ME!) TO VOMIT!

I shall just forget about the friendship I had with him (not trying to brag or something, but without me, he can't play that second piece), and after this whole thing, we shall remain as strangers if we EVER crossed path at school, and until Tuesday, there's gonna be a silence treatment.

FULL STOP! i'm seriously going bo chap already.

in conclusion, HW still rocks lah. I asked for his msn (but he don't use it), he gave me his handphone number instead. There's a reason for this la. I know him recently due to excessive INTENSE guitar training, so a bond called FRIENDSHIP bond is being built between us. Cuz I treasure the friendship I am having now with my fellow guitar members as they shall no longer be in school in an couple of months. SO, I still want to communicate with them even after they are no longer here. Friendship just don't end like that, right? Even if want to end, there should be some FAREWELL PARTY or something like that, to indicate "OFFICIALLY END OF FRIENDSHIP PARTY" (but for him, its just ended up like that, POOF)

And as an inspiration to work harder, he's the right J2 to look up to.

Today so pissed off that I did Maths hmk with extra large font for my handwriting. And GP essay, omg, haven't do =.=

- my mission: is to make (especially) you smile(: (not for that person who ruined my day!)

Tissany where are you? Never update, busy huh? I understand (:
Studying is all matters for now. JY! :D

Basically, I'm just gonna write some random stuffs that happened this week:

- rm asked me a question: "Do you know why I was born?"
so I dunno, I just said, "Its because of your parents?"
he said: "No. I was born because I want to balance the universe/equation".
I find this is quite meaningful, in a sense that he knows what he wants. I reflect this on the way home... so, I realised something ... ITS BECAUSE I WANT TO MAKE OTHER PEOPLE BE HAPPY (AND TO SMILE) (: I know its unsuccesful now, but SOON, I WILL help to make my objective come to life!


- the chem SPA 4 is so CONFUSING! I am sure teacher gonna see that our workings are all the same. lol. idc, no more full marks le T_T (no more chain) its okay, aim to get full marks for the next SPA =P

- OMG. WTF. tap the card thingy for marking your attendance?! that means i need to come early to tap for that thingy? I SERIOUSLY HATE ITTTT! i can find like 100 reasons why it shouldn't be like this. Simply HATE IT! =.=


- my knee like never get heal like that. the skin is damn rough T_T please don't say its infection larh. i find it very X_X and sometimes, its still hurts!

- WTF MORNING CALL FOR GUITAR TOMORROW? even if THE GUITAR PRESIDENT asked me if wnat morning call or not, I would just say, "YOU THINK YOUR CALL CAN WAKE PEOPLE UP MEH?! I RATHER CONTINUE SLEEPING THAN LISTENING TO YOUR VOICE" lol i love sarcasm ^_^

- then hor, just now, that HC guy really COMPLETE MY DAY! the jokes he made is so freaking FUNNY. i can't help it, but to LAUGH OUT LOUD! but yeah, its kinda lame.
YJ's quote: "My cuteness kills me!"
So I used that quote and said it out to HC.
and HC said: "Do you know why guitars got hole?"
Me said: "For the projection of sound?"
HC said: NO. ITS FOR ME TO VOMIT!
LOL so funny, that I tried to giggle silently as the lecture theatre was quiet, just as soon before we start playing Jazzsuite.
before guitar rehearsal starts, i actually told Priya that i was sad, dunno why i was sad. but then after guitar, I'M HAPPY due to the excessive laughter I had! :D

- T_T now cannot listen to those songs in my phone. so gotta rely on the YouTube to listen, and the speaker is damn CRAZY. yeah. I want to buy a super duper speaker. but of course, wait long long. don't expect too much people (:

- the AsiaSoft people came to our school. WOOHOO! I LOVE IT!

- got a lot of homework leh T_T

- IMPORTANT: when I say I want to HANG OUT with them (know who la), it DOES NOT MEAN that I LIKE (in love) WITH THEM. NO NO NO! Its about the fun. Anyway, even if I do..., I only tell 1 person. YES, i only tell MY GOOD FRIEND, TISSANY! Cuz I won't tell other people ^_^ (biased)

- I am currently damn bo chap. im bo chap kia alreadyyy. currently, my mind is full of SYF practices, and whatever Maths crap inside my head, no time to think about anything.

- Just now, teacher taught me Logarithm. Not bad larhh... Need more PRACTICE! (: Hu Wei shall be my motivation., err I mean, my ROLE MODEL (:

done typing, so sleepyyy. today do nothing. tomorrow do GP essay and Maths. sunday is for Redox and Atomic Structure!
call me, THE BO CHAP KIA :D

emo post, full of sarcasm:

OMG. kelian wo de mama. $200 pok already larhhs. now lunch time, since my mom no money, self-sacrifice, i will just eat INSTANT NOODLES EVERYDAY at school.
yeahh. 5 packets = $2 per week. cheapo! (:
my knees, POOR THING, instant noodles obviously lacked of vitamins and proteins, so my DEAR knees, it will take you forever to get heal.

and i can't be bothered with anything. USELESS. i will just live under the well.

yeahh. i know last year, i am one of the lowest ranking people in the whole college, in terms of academic. no shock when no one asked me question regards to academic subjects. so this year, yeah, its either people think that i am not clever or people think that i am selfish. THANK YOU VERY MUCH PEOPLE FOR MAKING ME FEELING THIS WAY. its okay, i am used to people think that i am not clever. well, i admit i am not anyway. lol i didn't blame anything.
i appear non-approachable cuz
1. i'm blur
2. shy
3. no common topics to talk about
4. just 'bo chap?'
5. people don't talk to me, i don't talk to people
in conclusion, my last year good friends know me well. FULLSTOP.
and Benny, LOL, i just read his January post few days ago, I AM SO TOUCHED. i'm considered one of them right? =P
see, this is what i call, SINCERITY. if I go out from college, I DON'T THINK ANYONE CARES.

1991 rocks.

- just can't be bothered

random thoughts:
1. feel irritated
2. feel inspired
3. feel disgusted
4. feeling confused
5. 17 AGAIN?!?!?!
6. detached skin left on the basketball court =P

AND I AM INSPIRED TO BECOME A CONDUCTORRR!
just now during guitar practice, the Jc1 girls are forced to be a conductor. i am Jc1 wat, then why never call me to become the conductor?! LOL. I WANT LEH! everytime see Paul conduct, its a damn cool la!
if i want to become a conductor in ACTUAL LIFE, is it too late? need music background right? should start from young! ahhh!

- no future, no life =.=

thursday:
PE time, i damn nervous to run (i was the one in front), while doing sort of a shuttle run to warm up. THEN... that's where i fell down. i thought firstly, its just a scratch as i dont feel pain. then my classmates were like, "OOH!" i looked down and realised that my knee got white white colour. obviously the skin has been 'detached on the basketball court'. then i purposely asked clara to go toilet with me, haha, cuz we sort of hate PE. reached toilet, then it started to bleed. after that, we dunno how to use the first-aid kit. we go asked teacher. LOL i wouldnt dare let other people dab the antiseptic on my wound. so i decided to put it myself. yuh yan was there to ensure that i could grab her if i couldn't stand it. then wasted LAAAA!, cuz during PE tat time, the dunno what thing came to our school, so we played their shooting game instead. WOOHOO. i get that band, with one shoot (but aim not tat good). haha. "SPECIAL TREATMENT!"
in conclusion, THANK YOU CLARA, YUH YAN AND THE TEACHER FOR THEIR HELP! =P GREATLY APPRECIATED.
ok maths test, can pass, by still emo la.

Friday:
;) a secret day
haha damn funny. i was wearing half Uniform/costume for guitar rehearsal cuz obviously i could not wear pants. so when the teachers asked me why i didn't wear my pants, then i showed them my knee! then they gave me this 'ouch' face. HAHAHA.
as for rehearsal, it was quite okay, except they made a little bit of changes, which makes HC think that we were actually performing a Drama. LOL. then *coughs coughs* someone's pants got torn, then can ... damn evil la. we all, basically the Alto people all laughed behind him. they don't dare to tell him. but after that, some people told him. lol i didn't laugh too much la, you know... RETRIBUTION. yeahh. so better don't laugh. sigh. today quite emo also la. bio test not A T_T

hmmm. to someone, who sat beside me...: don't get irritated. its not good. think of the people around you, okay? (: remember: CHANGE is always the best (:


me: no life =.=''

(short post)
why life has to be so suckyyy?
1. i haven't do gp essay, ST1 revision.
2. i'm lagging behind
3. i get stressed up so easily
4. my phone is not working.
5. every electronic thing that i touched will get spoilt
6. probably im cursed.
7. now, my life shall be complete silence and emptiness cuz i can't listen to the radio or my songs in my phone.
8. i can't take photos cuz phone spoilt, can't see the beautiful images i've snapped.
9. can't message Tissany. so i probably will be living in a dark well where there's no 'signal'.
10. so busy with life, that i ate prata for breakfast, 4 nuggets for my 'lunch' at 5pm, and my dinner at 10.30pm

just msn-ed with wx. thanks or enlightening me. i really need it, and it helps. thank you :D