Week 4

Hello, it's me again

Now it's already week 4 and i'm still struggling like mad:/

I really don't really feel like doing anything right now, just feel like slacking the day away

Maybe I should just relax for the day and be mentally prepared tomorrow for my intensive mugging session?

Hmm..Otherwise, I will drink coffee later at 11pm after catching my show and chiong in the midnight where I have ZERO distractions

Nothing else except for me and my books/notes.

Hmm..this seems to be a good idea:DDD

Okay..Uni life isn't that bad but just that it is really tough to get someone who knows you well enough. I wonder if my friends did realize the significant change in me. What's wrong with me?

Maybe it's time to share with some of them?

I'm sure they are trustworthy enough to share their thoughts about the situation that I am in.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=so6ExplQlaY

ASSESSMENTS:(

Assessments are driving me crazy!

Haix

I have no choice but to do them and do my work efficiently, shall not procrastinate anymore!!!!!!!

Sem 2 Week 1 life

Hello, it's me again.

Week One has ended and it seems that it is going to be another tough fight in life ever.

The things that I am learning are getting a lot tougher as expected and everyone seems to mug even on the first week of school term Semester 2. Come on, as always expected in life but I was nevertheless shocked when I knew that all my classmates have been mugging like hell on the first week. It shouldn't be a surprise anymore i guess since all my classmates were born muggers since they were brought to this world. Perhaps it is the society that force them to be like this but it is still very scary when I knew them last year august.

I feel that they are not very close within their own cliques and they are just putting up a strong "fake" front in front of the others.

HYPOCRITE

I don't feel even comfortable with them as they are just simply so FAKE.

Seriously. WTF totally.

I think they are just putting up a show for everyone to see and they are just merely FRIENDLY COMPETITORS totally

That shouldn't be the case so.

Now, me and sha seem to be getting a lot closer. Perhaps we are just being really alike in terms of our REAL personality:DDD

It is totally alright.

I don't need such hypocrites to be my friends

They just don't deserve to be my friends

2012 - Beginning of Y1 Sem 2 Life

Gosh !

Time really flies~~~

It has been almost half a year in my course.

Now I still have one more day to the start of my course in Year One Semester 2!

Time to tell the truth...

Confession time to myself

Frankly speaking, I don't really hate my course or anything, or do I have the right to hate my course?:S Anyway, the course itself is really fulfilling and meaningful BUT just that I'm not too sure if I am capable of working when I graduate. I mean, it is really tough job and I'm sure that not many people can actually bear with the workload and rotating night shifts. It would be tough for me to cope with, especially when my health condition sucks totally...

Also, I think I would have to stay for at least a few years before I can acquire enough experience to enter to education route? What if there are some changes then? Like, I were promoted and my company would want to sponsor me for further studies? What should I do then?

Gosh~~~

This is too much for me to think about all these stuffs right now.

I'm quite confused now.

If I want to study another course instead, what will happen to me?

I would be a lot older than my fellow peers even if I managed to get into my dream course.

So what if I ENTER TO MY DREAM COURSE?

What significance does it mean to me, as a student?

I would be busy with mugging all day long and worrying about whether I can get a job when I graduate...

L-O-V-E

Weather: Sunny

Have the sudden urge to write a post about LOVE while watching taiwanese drama series. Suddenly I think that the editor is right about something. Sometimes, your love towards that person may not be based on your IDEAL TYPE. Though the type differs from reality, it does not mean that the love will not be everlasting as love may be as simple as going through the flow.

Let things go naturally.

Therefore, I shall stop trying to get my ideal type of guy LOL - Cho Kyuhyun from super junior.

Everything will work out just fine.

Perfection

I don't understand why people nowadays are desperately seeking for perfection.

In their eyes, they are only attracted to beautiful and flawless things which makes them really superficial and fake. Not referring to their FLAWLESS appearance, but their inner self.

Seriously, looking at the youngsters nowadays, it's kinda scary to see how much effort they put in just to make themselves look flawless. I mean, there is nothing wrong in putting effort to make themselves pretty, but the problem arises when they are too obsessed with beauty and nothing else.

Come on, people!!!!

Don't you guys have better things to do in life except for seeking for your own definition of beauty?! I'm really freaked out when I see so many girls spending tons of money to look chio. For my cousins case, they mostly revolve around their bfs so they "have" to look pretty to match their bfs duh. What kind of logic is that? I really don't get it and I cann't be bothered to comprehend their mindset.

Without inner beauty, everything else exterior are pretty much....fake

But how many guys really see the inner beauty of a female instead of looking at her appearance? With this trend, I can foresee that more and more girls will be more obsessed with improving their external beauty with makeup and plastic surgery:S Such a saddening trend to see:(

Hope I would be able to find a guy who appreciates inner beauty more than physical appearance soon...

Welcome 2012!

Hello, it's me again>.<

Shall update this blog since I don't really know what else I should do.

Since a brand new year is coming soon (to be exact: in 4hrs and 51mins), perhaps I should blog about what I want to do for next year 2012.

Though many may have the idea or concept, whatever you call it as, that 2012 is the end of the world. This is totally crap. Who can ever predict (Correctly) what will happen in the future? Therefore, since no one can ever prove it, then only time will tell us the truth. If the world does not end in year 2012, perhaps it is a great start for all of us to start all over again and make things right by changing yourself, your attitude towards life and your perceptions.

Self reflection time

I shall try to change myself since I am problematic.

I'm really quite sad that things went that way, it is not the way I want it to be.

The confession was not supposedly to be known.

Blame on my recklessness haix

I really don't want to lose a good friend like him, things just shouldn't be in this way.

I have lost too many good friends and I definitely do not want to lose any more friends.

Life is simply too miserable for me, a lonely me.

I think I changed way too much after I have repeated.

I think I'm less secured now?

Maybe more lonely???

Perhaps I realized that most of my "friends" betrayed my trust with them in school, which resulted in my current character. Thanks to those people wtf

Okay, shall not use vulgarities anymore.

Think of it positively, it may be a good thing with my current personality.

It prevents myself from getting hurt anymore:X

I wonder why we don't have much things to talk about;(

I'm quite troubled by it haix

Okay I managed to "talk" to him yesterday night via fb but it's like...different somehow:(

Things have changed far too much for me to bear

Sad ttm

Here is the conversation:

WARNING: AWKWARD TTM

Me: hmm...I hope you wouldn't feel awkward talking to me tho:S

Him: ??

Me: as in...hmm..after the awkward conversation in oct

Him: ohhh nah

See?

Shall stop emoing and plan for my new year resolution NOW

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