I must be getting old

I think age is really catching up on me already.
Sometimes, or in fact, most of the times, i do prefer to stay alone and just be alone.
Just me and myself.

I feel that it is perfectly fine to do so.

This goes for everything, eating, shopping, i can do this alone all by myself and i do find it perfectly fine.

Sometimes, i really feel that I'm getting old.

Right now, I'm thinking of what would be my greatest regrets if i die one day-.-
What a topic to think about on my off day and when I am only 23 this year.

What would be my future be?
Will I have children? WAIT
Will I even get married? -.-
Will I get to do the things that i really enjoy?
Will I get a stable income with enough money to support the family?
Will I get to travel frequently and explore the world?

Too many things running through my mind and i really feel that I am old.

cont..

wtf.

what if i die one day and i finally realized that i really like him?!
and regretted much that i did not do anything to confess to him.

what kind of thoughts are these?!

what is wrong with my brain SERIOUSLY.

What if....

kept thinking about umairah's question for me," wouldn't you feel heartbreak when you know that you cannot get together with bunny?" 

My initial reply was,"okay what. no point wasting my time hoping for things that wouldn't happen at all. besides, i don't think i like him as a person. i feel that i like him simply because he fits into the criterion" 

-.- wtf right?

However, to think of it, i think i really miss him a lot. 

Miss those days in jc where we could hang out and everything. 

Miss those random conversations that we had. 

Miss those stupid messages that we were texting each other about. 

Miss those palpitations that I had when I see him or whenever I think about him. 

Miss everything in fact about him. 

TIME to be back to reality. 

I am someone who believe in fate. 

If we are meant to be, nothing could separate us. 

However, the irony is that I believe in taking chances-.- 

Closer, Faster

Lyrics:

When it gets dark we're falling far tonight
Under the moonlight chasing fireflies
If I'd ask you, "do you think you want to?"
Just say yes without feeling like you got to
It's the way that you looked at me
That night

When the butterflies
They came to life
By your side

So won't you pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
Boy don't make me wait forever
Oh-oh
You know we'd be so much better 
If we could fall in love together
Pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after

You lift me up take my feet off the ground
With just one look it's like you've got me now
Left me speechless, didn't know I'd feel this
Just say yes, boy you know that we could do this
I'm the one you've been dreaming of
And that's why

The butterflies
They come to life
Every time

So won't you pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
Boy don't make me wait forever
Oh-oh
You know we'd be so much better 
If we could fall in love together
Pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after

It's in the sound of your voice
You've got me caught up in your eyes
And under all the stars
Can you feel the butterflies?
And even at the summer's end
You left with all your promises
I still remember when you said
We could make it last 

So won't you pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
Boy don't make me wait forever
Oh-oh
You know we'd be so much better 
If we could fall in love together
Pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after

So won't you pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
Boy don't make me wait forever
Oh-oh
You know we'd be so much better 
If we could fall in love together
Pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after

TOP TEN REASONS WHY I WILL MAKE THE BEST WIFE FOR BUNNY

17/11/13 

Since i have absolutely no mood to study, i shall write a blog post today. 
Hopefully after writing the blog post, I would have the mood to mug like siao later.

i shall give TOP TEN reasons why he should marry me and why I would be the best choice. 

#1: I have known him for 5 years, no one else know him better than I do. 
#2: I am his vice president of FOREVERALONE club whereas he is the president. So we should be together forever. 
#3: We are very similar in many things, including the music genre we both like. e.g. adam lambert
#4: We both love rilakkuma and pokemon <3 font="">
#5: I LOVE him and I will never leave him alone
#6: I will put down everything, including my dreams, just to pursue his. 
#7: I will definitely NOT let him suffer, let him being ever alone ever again
#8: I will work very very hard to make sure that he does not have to worry about anything related to finances. As a dutiful wife, I will share his burden together with him, not to create any trouble or add on to his burdens
#9: Since I will enter the workforce earlier, I will make sure I will spend a lot of time with him even if I am working in shifts. I can even sponsor part of his education fees too. 
I can do multiple jobs at the same time; working full-time and coaching our kids in the future. 
I can do all things with LOVE
#10: We are just fated to meet each other, nothing can ever separate us ever again. That is the reason why we are telepathically connected. I will never leave you alone, regardless of sickness or old age. I will never go for someone else because I know that we are fated to be together and ever. 

Emo

02.07.2013 

Too many things that are running through my mind. 

Cannot focus properly. 

Need some time to cool down and think through everything in life NOW

Updates and everything

12/05/2013 
12:56am 

Hello. It's me again. 
Just feel that I'm talking to myself via this blog-.- 
Well, but to some extent, I guess it is good in some ways so that I can share things without letting anyone knowing about all these (except me and um). 

Updates: 
Decided to stay in church despite having some kind of conflicts in there. 
Though I really enjoyed myself in another church, but I'm rather certain that I would face similar problems if I switched church to there. 
So, the best thing is to stay put. 
Finish my followup and just see how things progress after that. 
But somehow, as much as I really enjoyed myself and churchmates' company, I don't foresee myself giving everything to it in terms of everything. 
I must admit that I have indeed changed a lot after going to church and I'm quite certain that I would be able to accomplish more and gain more confidence if I continue to stay in church. 

Heard things about yx just now from the church mates. 
I'm really surprised that he really came from a well-to-do family, his family car is BMW, living in condo and everything. 
However, I really feel for him when they mentioned that he didn't sleep a lot; so he always dozed off when he is with his friends in car rides etc. That explains why he overslept during one of the korean class. It seemed that he don't sleep much and that explains why he tends to doze off during cg outings. That probably explains why he lost weight as well.
NOT ENOUGH SLEEP + STRESS = WEIGHT LOSS

Talked to him just now in mac and I really feel that perhaps I just need to know him a little more. He seemed to be in his own world at times (playing games in his ipad) 
CUTE OR WHAT
I might fall for him :3

I'm very certain that I don't like JJ liao based on the conversation that we had just now.
Purely admiration. 

I'm not too sure if I do admire yx.
Even though I don't get palpitations like when I see bunny, but after "touching" him and spending more time with him during korean class & cg outings & whatsapp conversation, I guess I...sort of like him -.-
Well, it could all be delusions