12.07.2016
Had a weird dream about two weeks back about him.
Dreamt that we held hands together but he told me that he is going to accept the girl who was standing a distance away from both of us.
When I asked him why did he accept her, he just replied that that was because she asked him to marry her so he agreed. WTF.
Where got such logic one?
I mean that it is not even zhu dong or pei dong kind, this is probably sui bian.
Then when I asked him why are the both of us even holding hands, he just replied that because he is used to it.
WTF
Please don't let this happen in reality
Tuesday, July 12
Saturday, December 12
스트레스
12/12/15
Life can really be stressful at times.
There are so many responsibilities for us to bear, be it family commitments, work and social life.
As a full time working adult with 1 year and maybe 3 months of working experience, I can say that I am really sick of work.
Working life is too stressful for me. Especially in this field.
Will be right back.
searching random courses that I might be able to take
Life can really be stressful at times.
There are so many responsibilities for us to bear, be it family commitments, work and social life.
As a full time working adult with 1 year and maybe 3 months of working experience, I can say that I am really sick of work.
Working life is too stressful for me. Especially in this field.
Will be right back.
searching random courses that I might be able to take
Monday, March 2
Lonely? Or Not?
02/03/15
Third entry of the day. Seriously. efficiency to the maximum.
I can't help it but to recall what my pt predicted as he went to predict my personality/character in detail. 100% accurate. No joke.
Damn it.
Why did I only ask him the number of kids I would have? and their gender?
But why did I not ask him more about my future partner? (WTF. I hope not those ONS type)
You know what I mean.
Having kids BUT without a partner/husband.
THANKS BUT NO THANKS MAN.
Maybe I should spend money and get it predicted for me.
You know, to get mentally prepared for who the person is.
Will he be someone I already know?
I'm sorry but in my head, I already have 3 candidates in mind.
You know, preferred ones.
Actually, if I get to choose who I can get together with, I would choose him as the first choice (or is it?)
But then hor, my impression of him was struck since 7-8 years back.
So I don't think I would know him well.
Hmmm, to think of it, I wonder if he is attached now.
So maybe the first choice is that pet. that home pet.
BUT THEN, THE MOST PREFERRED CHOICE IS YJ. :D
His career prospects are good HEHEHEHEHE
Third entry of the day. Seriously. efficiency to the maximum.
I can't help it but to recall what my pt predicted as he went to predict my personality/character in detail. 100% accurate. No joke.
Damn it.
Why did I only ask him the number of kids I would have? and their gender?
But why did I not ask him more about my future partner? (WTF. I hope not those ONS type)
You know what I mean.
Having kids BUT without a partner/husband.
THANKS BUT NO THANKS MAN.
Maybe I should spend money and get it predicted for me.
You know, to get mentally prepared for who the person is.
Will he be someone I already know?
I'm sorry but in my head, I already have 3 candidates in mind.
You know, preferred ones.
Actually, if I get to choose who I can get together with, I would choose him as the first choice (or is it?)
But then hor, my impression of him was struck since 7-8 years back.
So I don't think I would know him well.
Hmmm, to think of it, I wonder if he is attached now.
So maybe the first choice is that pet. that home pet.
BUT THEN, THE MOST PREFERRED CHOICE IS YJ. :D
His career prospects are good HEHEHEHEHE
Comparison
02/03/15
I really can't help it but to associate both of them together!
Similarities:
1. Rather similar names. YJ vs CJ
2. The hairstyle.
3. Feeling. Just feels that they are really similar
Dream. Not just any other dream.
01/03/2015
Dreamt about someone today.
It was really weird to dream about him as it has been almost 7 years since I last saw him and yet the dream felt so real. Too real in fact.
It was to the extent that I was really angry with him about the things that he has done last time, which was actually nothing as compared to me; since I were the one who ignored him for almost two years. It really made me wonder why I did all those stupid things last time.
Poor friend of mine.
I cannot really recall why I ignored him for almost two years. I really cannot recall the reason why.
Who can enlighten me now?
I wondered why I dreamt about him today.
I mean, it is interesting how our brains actually work.
How can the dream about him talking to me felt so real?
This is too strange. Yet interesting.
How can my dream be so real?
Of him talking to me and everything?
It was just too awesome.
But again...
How can he did all those things to me?! How can he betray my feelings for him and go for my senior?! I wondered why she appeared in my dream. Maybe because I saw her walking in front of the cute doctor this morning before I left ward HAHAHAHA.
Actually, to think of it, I don't recall any bad habits of him as a friend.
Oh wellz. At least to my memory.
I guess I would almost never forget him since I went to chase after him as he was totally devastated to know that my class skipping team was not united and hardworking at all.
So korean drama-ish please.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
I guess I would never do that ever again LOL
Too korean drama-ish prior to the k-wave HAHAHAHA
Back to the dream, how can he attach to my senior when I have waited for him for so many years?! WTF.
But in that dream, I was really devastated by his actions and just by the sight of him and her together actually.
to the extent that I threw his handphone and his bag away HAHAHAHAHA
Maybe it means that I was too stressful at work. I guess that must be the case.
Damn funny. to think of it.
Dreamt about someone today.
It was really weird to dream about him as it has been almost 7 years since I last saw him and yet the dream felt so real. Too real in fact.
It was to the extent that I was really angry with him about the things that he has done last time, which was actually nothing as compared to me; since I were the one who ignored him for almost two years. It really made me wonder why I did all those stupid things last time.
Poor friend of mine.
I cannot really recall why I ignored him for almost two years. I really cannot recall the reason why.
Who can enlighten me now?
I wondered why I dreamt about him today.
I mean, it is interesting how our brains actually work.
How can the dream about him talking to me felt so real?
This is too strange. Yet interesting.
How can my dream be so real?
Of him talking to me and everything?
It was just too awesome.
But again...
How can he did all those things to me?! How can he betray my feelings for him and go for my senior?! I wondered why she appeared in my dream. Maybe because I saw her walking in front of the cute doctor this morning before I left ward HAHAHAHA.
Actually, to think of it, I don't recall any bad habits of him as a friend.
Oh wellz. At least to my memory.
I guess I would almost never forget him since I went to chase after him as he was totally devastated to know that my class skipping team was not united and hardworking at all.
So korean drama-ish please.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
I guess I would never do that ever again LOL
Too korean drama-ish prior to the k-wave HAHAHAHA
Back to the dream, how can he attach to my senior when I have waited for him for so many years?! WTF.
But in that dream, I was really devastated by his actions and just by the sight of him and her together actually.
to the extent that I threw his handphone and his bag away HAHAHAHAHA
Maybe it means that I was too stressful at work. I guess that must be the case.
Damn funny. to think of it.
Saturday, August 2
work - life
02/08/2014
Random thoughts of the day.
What if the world really comes to an end one day and I am still struck with nowhere?
What if I did not manage to accomplish much things in life?
What if I would die in regrets as I did not do the things that I want to do in life?
What if I die without confessing to him?
Eh. WAIT A MINUTE.
Who is that him?
Is he..
The one i knew since year 2008?
The one who i barely keep in contact with as he is always so busy in his own life?
The one who i barely see him physically?
Maybe at most once or twice a year after graduation? (excluding the days when I met him in school on purpose)
The one who is so reserved and yet (WTF am i thinking? The word that came up in my mind was "charming")
SERIOUSLY WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT?
...and yet so irresistible?
OMG this is getting far too much.
But the question is...Do I really like him?
I wouldn't mind confessing but when?
how should i go about it?
where?
what will happen if i do that?
I am thinking of his convocation.
maybe i can attend his and give him a big hug :D
and confession following that?
GREAT IDEA
when his parents will be there to witness the whole scene
and i doubt/dont think he will invite me -.-
GRRGHHHHHH this is so frustrating
Random thoughts of the day.
What if the world really comes to an end one day and I am still struck with nowhere?
What if I did not manage to accomplish much things in life?
What if I would die in regrets as I did not do the things that I want to do in life?
What if I die without confessing to him?
Eh. WAIT A MINUTE.
Who is that him?
Is he..
The one i knew since year 2008?
The one who i barely keep in contact with as he is always so busy in his own life?
The one who i barely see him physically?
Maybe at most once or twice a year after graduation? (excluding the days when I met him in school on purpose)
The one who is so reserved and yet (WTF am i thinking? The word that came up in my mind was "charming")
SERIOUSLY WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT?
...and yet so irresistible?
OMG this is getting far too much.
But the question is...Do I really like him?
I wouldn't mind confessing but when?
how should i go about it?
where?
what will happen if i do that?
I am thinking of his convocation.
maybe i can attend his and give him a big hug :D
and confession following that?
GREAT IDEA
when his parents will be there to witness the whole scene
and i doubt/dont think he will invite me -.-
GRRGHHHHHH this is so frustrating
Saturday, July 26
Where is my bf ?!
26/07/14 Saturday
Received a few good news from my friends recently that they are either getting attached or getting into new phase of their lives, be it just gave birth or planning for ROM next year.
Though I am sincerely happy for my friends that they are moving towards the new phase of their lives and that they are happy with what they have, I cannot help it but to feel worried for myself.
When would the day come for me?
Reading the predictions for zodiac signs / chinese zodiac wouldn't help much either.
Year after year, they often predicted mine as the year where I would find love etc
But I don't think I see any signs as for now -.-
Maybe I should just focus on my work and maybe one day, the ONE would be staying right in front of me, waiting for me to nod my head.
And I shall live happily with him ever after - just like how a typical fairy tale ending should be.
GRGGHHHHH
This is so frustrating.
I want to get attached but I have no money to pamper myself/doll myself up -.-
I just need a little more money to doll myself up and that would do the trick -.-
$.$
Received a few good news from my friends recently that they are either getting attached or getting into new phase of their lives, be it just gave birth or planning for ROM next year.
Though I am sincerely happy for my friends that they are moving towards the new phase of their lives and that they are happy with what they have, I cannot help it but to feel worried for myself.
When would the day come for me?
Reading the predictions for zodiac signs / chinese zodiac wouldn't help much either.
Year after year, they often predicted mine as the year where I would find love etc
But I don't think I see any signs as for now -.-
Maybe I should just focus on my work and maybe one day, the ONE would be staying right in front of me, waiting for me to nod my head.
And I shall live happily with him ever after - just like how a typical fairy tale ending should be.
GRGGHHHHH
This is so frustrating.
I want to get attached but I have no money to pamper myself/doll myself up -.-
I just need a little more money to doll myself up and that would do the trick -.-
$.$
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