01/03/2015
Dreamt about someone today.
It was really weird to dream about him as it has been almost 7 years since I last saw him and yet the dream felt so real. Too real in fact.
It was to the extent that I was really angry with him about the things that he has done last time, which was actually nothing as compared to me; since I were the one who ignored him for almost two years. It really made me wonder why I did all those stupid things last time.
Poor friend of mine.
I cannot really recall why I ignored him for almost two years. I really cannot recall the reason why.
Who can enlighten me now?
I wondered why I dreamt about him today.
I mean, it is interesting how our brains actually work.
How can the dream about him talking to me felt so real?
This is too strange. Yet interesting.
How can my dream be so real?
Of him talking to me and everything?
It was just too awesome.
But again...
How can he did all those things to me?! How can he betray my feelings for him and go for my senior?! I wondered why she appeared in my dream. Maybe because I saw her walking in front of the cute doctor this morning before I left ward HAHAHAHA.
Actually, to think of it, I don't recall any bad habits of him as a friend.
Oh wellz. At least to my memory.
I guess I would almost never forget him since I went to chase after him as he was totally devastated to know that my class skipping team was not united and hardworking at all.
So korean drama-ish please.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
I guess I would never do that ever again LOL
Too korean drama-ish prior to the k-wave HAHAHAHA
Back to the dream, how can he attach to my senior when I have waited for him for so many years?! WTF.
But in that dream, I was really devastated by his actions and just by the sight of him and her together actually.
to the extent that I threw his handphone and his bag away HAHAHAHAHA
Maybe it means that I was too stressful at work. I guess that must be the case.
Damn funny. to think of it.
Monday, March 2
Saturday, August 2
work - life
02/08/2014
Random thoughts of the day.
What if the world really comes to an end one day and I am still struck with nowhere?
What if I did not manage to accomplish much things in life?
What if I would die in regrets as I did not do the things that I want to do in life?
What if I die without confessing to him?
Eh. WAIT A MINUTE.
Who is that him?
Is he..
The one i knew since year 2008?
The one who i barely keep in contact with as he is always so busy in his own life?
The one who i barely see him physically?
Maybe at most once or twice a year after graduation? (excluding the days when I met him in school on purpose)
The one who is so reserved and yet (WTF am i thinking? The word that came up in my mind was "charming")
SERIOUSLY WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT?
...and yet so irresistible?
OMG this is getting far too much.
But the question is...Do I really like him?
I wouldn't mind confessing but when?
how should i go about it?
where?
what will happen if i do that?
I am thinking of his convocation.
maybe i can attend his and give him a big hug :D
and confession following that?
GREAT IDEA
when his parents will be there to witness the whole scene
and i doubt/dont think he will invite me -.-
GRRGHHHHHH this is so frustrating
Random thoughts of the day.
What if the world really comes to an end one day and I am still struck with nowhere?
What if I did not manage to accomplish much things in life?
What if I would die in regrets as I did not do the things that I want to do in life?
What if I die without confessing to him?
Eh. WAIT A MINUTE.
Who is that him?
Is he..
The one i knew since year 2008?
The one who i barely keep in contact with as he is always so busy in his own life?
The one who i barely see him physically?
Maybe at most once or twice a year after graduation? (excluding the days when I met him in school on purpose)
The one who is so reserved and yet (WTF am i thinking? The word that came up in my mind was "charming")
SERIOUSLY WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT?
...and yet so irresistible?
OMG this is getting far too much.
But the question is...Do I really like him?
I wouldn't mind confessing but when?
how should i go about it?
where?
what will happen if i do that?
I am thinking of his convocation.
maybe i can attend his and give him a big hug :D
and confession following that?
GREAT IDEA
when his parents will be there to witness the whole scene
and i doubt/dont think he will invite me -.-
GRRGHHHHHH this is so frustrating
Saturday, July 26
Where is my bf ?!
26/07/14 Saturday
Received a few good news from my friends recently that they are either getting attached or getting into new phase of their lives, be it just gave birth or planning for ROM next year.
Though I am sincerely happy for my friends that they are moving towards the new phase of their lives and that they are happy with what they have, I cannot help it but to feel worried for myself.
When would the day come for me?
Reading the predictions for zodiac signs / chinese zodiac wouldn't help much either.
Year after year, they often predicted mine as the year where I would find love etc
But I don't think I see any signs as for now -.-
Maybe I should just focus on my work and maybe one day, the ONE would be staying right in front of me, waiting for me to nod my head.
And I shall live happily with him ever after - just like how a typical fairy tale ending should be.
GRGGHHHHH
This is so frustrating.
I want to get attached but I have no money to pamper myself/doll myself up -.-
I just need a little more money to doll myself up and that would do the trick -.-
$.$
Received a few good news from my friends recently that they are either getting attached or getting into new phase of their lives, be it just gave birth or planning for ROM next year.
Though I am sincerely happy for my friends that they are moving towards the new phase of their lives and that they are happy with what they have, I cannot help it but to feel worried for myself.
When would the day come for me?
Reading the predictions for zodiac signs / chinese zodiac wouldn't help much either.
Year after year, they often predicted mine as the year where I would find love etc
But I don't think I see any signs as for now -.-
Maybe I should just focus on my work and maybe one day, the ONE would be staying right in front of me, waiting for me to nod my head.
And I shall live happily with him ever after - just like how a typical fairy tale ending should be.
GRGGHHHHH
This is so frustrating.
I want to get attached but I have no money to pamper myself/doll myself up -.-
I just need a little more money to doll myself up and that would do the trick -.-
$.$
Sunday, April 27
I must be getting old
I think age is really catching up on me already.
Sometimes, or in fact, most of the times, i do prefer to stay alone and just be alone.
Just me and myself.
I feel that it is perfectly fine to do so.
This goes for everything, eating, shopping, i can do this alone all by myself and i do find it perfectly fine.
Sometimes, i really feel that I'm getting old.
Right now, I'm thinking of what would be my greatest regrets if i die one day-.-
What a topic to think about on my off day and when I am only 23 this year.
What would be my future be?
Will I have children? WAIT
Will I even get married? -.-
Will I get to do the things that i really enjoy?
Will I get a stable income with enough money to support the family?
Will I get to travel frequently and explore the world?
Too many things running through my mind and i really feel that I am old.
Sometimes, or in fact, most of the times, i do prefer to stay alone and just be alone.
Just me and myself.
I feel that it is perfectly fine to do so.
This goes for everything, eating, shopping, i can do this alone all by myself and i do find it perfectly fine.
Sometimes, i really feel that I'm getting old.
Right now, I'm thinking of what would be my greatest regrets if i die one day-.-
What a topic to think about on my off day and when I am only 23 this year.
What would be my future be?
Will I have children? WAIT
Will I even get married? -.-
Will I get to do the things that i really enjoy?
Will I get a stable income with enough money to support the family?
Will I get to travel frequently and explore the world?
Too many things running through my mind and i really feel that I am old.
cont..
wtf.
what if i die one day and i finally realized that i really like him?!
and regretted much that i did not do anything to confess to him.
what kind of thoughts are these?!
what is wrong with my brain SERIOUSLY.
what if i die one day and i finally realized that i really like him?!
and regretted much that i did not do anything to confess to him.
what kind of thoughts are these?!
what is wrong with my brain SERIOUSLY.
What if....
kept thinking about umairah's question for me," wouldn't you feel heartbreak when you know that you cannot get together with bunny?"
My initial reply was,"okay what. no point wasting my time hoping for things that wouldn't happen at all. besides, i don't think i like him as a person. i feel that i like him simply because he fits into the criterion"
-.- wtf right?
However, to think of it, i think i really miss him a lot.
Miss those days in jc where we could hang out and everything.
Miss those random conversations that we had.
Miss those stupid messages that we were texting each other about.
Miss those palpitations that I had when I see him or whenever I think about him.
Miss everything in fact about him.
TIME to be back to reality.
I am someone who believe in fate.
If we are meant to be, nothing could separate us.
However, the irony is that I believe in taking chances-.-
Saturday, April 26
Closer, Faster
Lyrics:
When it gets dark we're falling far tonight
Under the moonlight chasing fireflies
If I'd ask you, "do you think you want to?"
Just say yes without feeling like you got to
It's the way that you looked at me
That night
When the butterflies
They came to life
By your side
So won't you pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
Boy don't make me wait forever
Oh-oh
You know we'd be so much better
If we could fall in love together
Pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
You lift me up take my feet off the ground
With just one look it's like you've got me now
Left me speechless, didn't know I'd feel this
Just say yes, boy you know that we could do this
I'm the one you've been dreaming of
And that's why
The butterflies
They come to life
Every time
So won't you pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
Boy don't make me wait forever
Oh-oh
You know we'd be so much better
If we could fall in love together
Pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
It's in the sound of your voice
You've got me caught up in your eyes
And under all the stars
Can you feel the butterflies?
And even at the summer's end
You left with all your promises
I still remember when you said
We could make it last
So won't you pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
Boy don't make me wait forever
Oh-oh
You know we'd be so much better
If we could fall in love together
Pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
So won't you pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
Boy don't make me wait forever
Oh-oh
You know we'd be so much better
If we could fall in love together
Pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
When it gets dark we're falling far tonight
Under the moonlight chasing fireflies
If I'd ask you, "do you think you want to?"
Just say yes without feeling like you got to
It's the way that you looked at me
That night
When the butterflies
They came to life
By your side
So won't you pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
Boy don't make me wait forever
Oh-oh
You know we'd be so much better
If we could fall in love together
Pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
You lift me up take my feet off the ground
With just one look it's like you've got me now
Left me speechless, didn't know I'd feel this
Just say yes, boy you know that we could do this
I'm the one you've been dreaming of
And that's why
The butterflies
They come to life
Every time
So won't you pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
Boy don't make me wait forever
Oh-oh
You know we'd be so much better
If we could fall in love together
Pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
It's in the sound of your voice
You've got me caught up in your eyes
And under all the stars
Can you feel the butterflies?
And even at the summer's end
You left with all your promises
I still remember when you said
We could make it last
So won't you pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
Boy don't make me wait forever
Oh-oh
You know we'd be so much better
If we could fall in love together
Pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
So won't you pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
Boy don't make me wait forever
Oh-oh
You know we'd be so much better
If we could fall in love together
Pull me closer, kiss me faster
Take me to your happily ever after
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